When someone asks me the worst thing that has happened to me I immediately think of the molar pregnancy I had when I was younger. Even though I was too young to be pregnant, and God probably knew what he was doing, it was still a really hard time in my life. Kevin and I had just started dating and it was an "oopsie". Apparently my ovulation issues didn't begin until after my molar pregnancy.
Once I had an ultrasound done and confirmed it, I had to have a D&C done to remove it. But, it didn't end there. I had to go back weekly then monthly for a little over a year to make sure my Hcg levels were going down, if they went back up there was a risk of getting cancer. Fortunately, everything turned out fine.
Even though I know in my heart I wasn't meant to have a child then, it was still a very uncomfortable memory that I store in the back of my mind..along with a bad car crash my friend and I got into when I was 16.
We were headed to my mom's house and ran off the road, trying to avoid a dog, and hit a deep ditch. The seat belt bruised our chests and the airbags ripped skin off of my face from hitting so hard. I passed out for a few seconds and remember trying to find my phone, which ended up in the very back of the SUV I had at the time. I was in so much shock I just remember constantly throwing up afterwards. We both ended up being okay after many weeks of soreness.
Those two memories stick out as the worst ones, the ones I try to forget.
The best thing that has happened to me is being my mom's daughter. I feel so thankful to have the Mom I have. She is nothing short of amazing. My dad cheated on my mom when I was 2 years old with her best friend, who is now my step mom, and my parents then divorced. Although I have a good relationship with my dad and forgave him, it has been basically just me and my mom my whole life. She raised me, and good at that, and we have a really special bond that only mother and daughter can have. My mom never remarried, and has rarely even dated..but she is such a strong person! She keeps up with her house and yard, which is gorgeous by the way, and doesn't let not having a man around slow her down.
My mom is truly and amazing women, and mother to have. I hope I'm at least half the mom for Mason and she is to me.
4 comments:
Thanks for sharing that girl! I never knew that about you and you sharing that painful part of your life made me tear up and think "wow, what a strong woman!" I am glad through all that pain you prevailed and you had Mason and met Kevin you are a wonderful person and mother! I know your mother is very proud of you and the person that you have come to be!
I am the same way with my mother, shes been there for every aspect of my life and loved me and respected me for who I am and for my faults! It sounds like you mother is a wonderful woman and has quite the impact on your life, and that is great because through her trials she ended up raising you to be strong, sweet, loving, and a great mother as well!
I dont know what it feels like to loose a child although if it ever happened to me no matter if the child was born or not, it would rip my heart out as well!
Just know that god has blessed you with your miracle baby Mason and you will definitely be blessed with more! He knows that you are a wonderful mother and that you will, continue to be one!
Its always great to have someone to talk to! I you ever need to talk or even someone to cry to im here! Thanks again for answering and being so strong about it! It takes alot of courage to talk about the difficult aspects of your life and it showes that you are a strong person!
Sending you love!!! :)
How awful for your mom. My mom was cheated on after 20 years of marriage but she was not best friends with the woman thank God. I still can't stand the woman (my dad is still with her) and she will NEVER be family in my opinion.
Wow Morgan, I did not know that about you. Oh my honey, I just about cried my eyes out early this morning reading this. You are a strong woman, to have gone through this. God blessed you with Mason and he will bless you with another one. What exactly is a molar pregnancy? I have never heard of that.
Being in a car crash is horrible, glad that you both were okay. We were in one when Kasin was 3 months old. It is a scary feeling when the air bags deploy.
Sorry to hear about that happening to your mom! So glad that you guys are close like that. ( I wish me and my mom were) That is good that you mom doesn't let a man not being around slow her down. Now a days women are all so dependent on a man that I am not sure that they would be able to survive one their own. ( Now this is just my opinion)
That was so sweet, Morgan! I'm sure you will be the same mother to your precious Mason! How are you, girl?! It has been too long! Hope everything is going amaizng for you! xo
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