A New Journey

It took me forever to get back into the groove of blogging, but I think I'm back to stay! I missed the social aspect of it mostly.

For some reason I couldn't make up my mind if I wanted to blog, if I wanted it to be public or private, and who to tell it existed. Blogging became a chore to me and it wasn't fun anymore. But, I've decided to give it another try again since we are making life changing decision. I need a place to write what's going on and what I'm feeling.

So, here I am! Again. :) With a new blog address and a clean slate!

As most of you know, since I keep in touch with a majority of you on Facebook, Mason just turned two! He is getting a cuter and cuter personality everyday, I just adore him with all my heart. Currently, our biggest challenge is learning the right ways to discipline him, and what does and doesn't work. I think it's safe to say he is in his terrible two's, and has been for awhile. Regardless, he is still the sweetest thing in the world. I love when he looks at me and says "wuv you mama"..then gives hugs and kisses. It melts me into a huge puddle of mush, he's had me wrapped around that little finger of his since Day 1.

I'm sure most of you are wondering what the big life changing decisions are that we are making, some of you know, but Kevin and I have decided to try for baby #2. We talked and debated it for months, and finally decided to go for it. If it isn't meant to happen, then it wont..simple as that.

Mason has Garrett to play with on the weekends, but I really feel like he needs a sibling. The longer we wait the further apart in age they will be, and one of the most important things to me is that they grow up close. I want to witness that awesome closeness, that sibling bond.

Boy, is it going to be hard..not only in the beginning, but forever. Being a parent is one of the hardest things in life, and doesn't really get much better as they get older because there will always be some sort of challenge as a parent, even when your children are grown. There's always something to worry about. But, I also know that being a parent has been one of the most rewarding things as well. Watching them grow, watching their achievements, watching them change before your eyes every single day. You can't beat that.

As nervous and terrified as I am to have another baby..because I know it's going to be double as hard having two kids, I also know it's going to be double the enjoyment. When you know something is going to be worth the hard times in the end, why not just go for it. Like Nike, just do it. So, that's exactly what we are going to do.

Since we had trouble conceiving Mason and had to take Clomid, my doctor told me we would more than likely have to take it for baby #2. This is my first cycle taking it, I took my first pill yesterday. Wish me luck. :)